Chobe/Botswana - good times - love is beautiful

Rolled in on Sunday 1^st, had driven form Planet Baobab about 60km form Nata, there is road works all the way up into Kasane.   This town has grown so much since the last time I was here.  I headed into the direction of their home, trying to recognize the road that they lived in, there it was after a few patient minuets.   I lay into my hooter gently and there popped Rex out with a warm smile, I we all know him.  His dogs barking and strangely waging their tails must be a new breed Rex is developing. 

I arrived just in time for lunch and river outing for fishing, at a mate’s home.   There were a large crowed of folks, won’t try remember their names.   The water was very choppy, and could see white horses just forming on the top of the waves. Rex wanted to take me down the river to where Bart was camping out on the Zambia side of the river, were his new job venture was taking place of building this fishing camp for these other guys.  Rex got me onto the phone with him, it was so good to hear his voice, always full of naughtiness, when I told him that we were worried to come down the river because of the bad waters, I was instructed to tell Rex to load some cement into the hull, and stop being a chicken  and get down there.  That is Bart that I remember form the first time I met him. 

We eventually took the boat out, up to the Botswana and Zambia border crossing and put some lures into the water and circled a little island, it was not long before, we both onto fish, but I was the only one to land it, Rex’s one spat him off when is jumped out of the water.  I still kept the hopes hi by landing another, they were not so big but made it worthwhile. 

The past few days, have been great with their great hospitality, and see Rex shining in his business; he is blessed with lots of peace and love. Having his little Megan at my cottage door, every morning, just fills my day full of love. And soon afterwards I get the amazing energy from Aimey, she is just like a ball of love.  Batina and Rex are just blessed with these amazing children, and let me not forget how blessed I am by having friends that one feel the love they are having.  I always said, we don’t have to own to have love, love is something we all have as long as we allow it to flow we shall receive.

Looking around me, even in this little town there are hardships, business, loved ones and health.  This makes me so grateful the way life has dealt with me, that’s why I have always said that hard time are ways of making us better people.  I am on this journey of becoming a better person, and hope I will find the peace to all more of it to fill me. 

This journey of mine is to see and appreciate love wherever I may find it, may it be through sounds, visual or physical contact, and as long as it touches my heart I will feel that I am on the right path. I am so lucky that during this change of life I have had since admitting that I have no control of my addictive personality, I have not separated myself from fiends of the past, I respect their way of their lives, and thank God I have never thought that the problem was with them, but rather that I was the problem.  I think a large reason for someone’s relapse, can come from trying to run from their past, we should try understand it rather than just cut it off.  If we were just to cut it off we would find ourselves lonely without friends, and total regret of our whole life up to that moment, and that could make us finding our old friends by going back to using, instead of stop blaming others, relies using is part of society way of release, and that we were not possible to control our using, and found life depressing and lonely.  Thank God for the love I received from my mother and friends that have made me who I am.  My heart has been my biggest form of strength, it guided me threw my ups and downs.  I am in the process of teaching myself, some techniques that others use to find harmony within them, I am much existed to be looking for help to make one a better person, but will leave my heart be the ruler of my decisions.

I have been in been on the road for almost 2 weeks, and this is the second day that I feel I am finding time to unwind on my journey. I hope I can get to a point in my life that, I find that serene space of being at peace with every moment of my life.  The one thing they say at the NA is that, if you hang around in a barbers shop, you will land up with a haircut.  So what I am going to follow is peace so I may land up with peace.  I always enjoyed my business days, but always found reason for complaining, I think that came with all the negativity I was putting into myself by using all sorts of substances.  I have a long journey to unwind but an so grateful for the chance I have received. 

I will be expressing myself about my freedom I am feeling without using, for this is my journey of my life at the moment.  The other thing is that I hope my writing and content will be appealing so that others will follow my journey of feeling freedom, and if they don’t I have at least put myself out there instead of building this journal for my own little self.  Sharing this on a blog, may touch others, or help them to share their little bits of their understanding of themselves.   

 Rolled in on Sunday 1^st, had driven form Planet Baobab about 60km form Nata, there is road works all the way up into Kasane.   This town has grown so much since the last time I was here.  I headed into the direction of their home, trying to recognize the road that they lived in, there it was after a few patient minuets.   I lay into my hooter gently and there popped Rex out with a warm smile, I we all know him.  His dogs barking and strangely waging their tails must be a new breed Rex is developing. 

I arrived just in time for lunch and river outing for fishing, at a mate’s home.   There were a large crowed of folks, won’t try remember their names.   The water was very choppy, and could see white horses just forming on the top of the waves. Rex wanted to take me down the river to where Bart was camping out on the Zambia side of the river, were his new job venture was taking place of building this fishing camp for these other guys.  Rex got me onto the phone with him, it was so good to hear his voice, always full of naughtiness, when I told him that we were worried to come down the river because of the bad waters, I was instructed to tell Rex to load some cement into the hull, and stop being a chicken  and get down there.  That is Bart that I remember form the first time I met him. 

We eventually took the boat out, up to the Botswana and Zambia border crossing and put some lures into the water and circled a little island, it was not long before, we both onto fish, but I was the only one to land it, Rex’s one spat him off when is jumped out of the water.  I still kept the hopes hi by landing another, they were not so big but made it worthwhile. 

The past few days, have been great with their great hospitality, and see Rex shining in his business; he is blessed with lots of peace and love. Having his little Megan at my cottage door, every morning, just fills my day full of love. And soon afterwards I get the amazing energy from Aimey, she is just like a ball of love.  Batina and Rex are just blessed with these amazing children, and let me not forget how blessed I am by having friends that one feel the love they are having.  I always said, we don’t have to own to have love, love is something we all have as long as we allow it to flow we shall receive.

Looking around me, even in this little town there are hardships, business, loved ones and health.  This makes me so grateful the way life has dealt with me, that’s why I have always said that hard time are ways of making us better people.  I am on this journey of becoming a better person, and hope I will find the peace to all more of it to fill me. 

This journey of mine is to see and appreciate love wherever I may find it, may it be through sounds, visual or physical contact, and as long as it touches my heart I will feel that I am on the right path. I am so lucky that during this change of life I have had since admitting that I have no control of my addictive personality, I have not separated myself from fiends of the past, I respect their way of their lives, and thank God I have never thought that the problem was with them, but rather that I was the problem.  I think a large reason for someone’s relapse, can come from trying to run from their past, we should try understand it rather than just cut it off.  If we were just to cut it off we would find ourselves lonely without friends, and total regret of our whole life up to that moment, and that could make us finding our old friends by going back to using, instead of stop blaming others, relies using is part of society way of release, and that we were not possible to control our using, and found life depressing and lonely.  Thank God for the love I received from my mother and friends that have made me who I am.  My heart has been my biggest form of strength, it guided me threw my ups and downs.  I am in the process of teaching myself, some techniques that others use to find harmony within them, I am much existed to be looking for help to make one a better person, but will leave my heart be the ruler of my decisions.

I have been in been on the road for almost 2 weeks, and this is the second day that I feel I am finding time to unwind on my journey. I hope I can get to a point in my life that, I find that serene space of being at peace with every moment of my life.  The one thing they say at the NA is that, if you hang around in a barbers shop, you will land up with a haircut.  So what I am going to follow is peace so I may land up with peace.  I always enjoyed my business days, but always found reason for complaining, I think that came with all the negativity I was putting into myself by using all sorts of substances.  I have a long journey to unwind but an so grateful for the chance I have received. 

I will be expressing myself about my freedom I am feeling without using, for this is my journey of my life at the moment.  The other thing is that I hope my writing and content will be appealing so that others will follow my journey of feeling freedom, and if they don’t I have at least put myself out there instead of building this journal for my own little self.  Sharing this on a blog, may touch others, or help them to share their little bits of their understanding of themselves.